Saturday, September 15, 2007

SAD


Kevin, Courtney, Brooke, and I went to be with the family today. We got there at 1:00. My grandmother was breathing very hard, and things looked bad. She did not respond to us at all. Her little body was so small, but yet her hands was swollen triple in size. Her one side of her body was so hot, and the other side was so cold. Kevin watched my grandmother breath and he told me that he did not think she would be here very long at all. I decided I was staying and being there for my mom. Kevin had to work so he left and dropped Brooke off at his moms.
The time went by so slow. I hugged my grandmother and gave her lots of kisses. My grandmothers room was full of family all day. I went to the waiting room some, but most of the time I was right there. Kevin had told me what to look for when it was nearing the end. He said my grandmothers breathing would become very slow.
I did not want to see my grandmother suffer. She had so much fluid on her that you could hear it rattle in her chest. I begged God not to let her suffer. God answered that prayer.
I called home and Brooke was wanting her mommy. I told my dad he was going to have to take me home. I had this feeling come over me very strong not to leave. I started watching my grandmother and I noticed her breathing had slowed very much. I told my dad I thought we needed to wait. Within no time I knew the end of my grandmothers life was coming to a end. We all stood by her bed and held each other as my grandmother took her last breath. Courtney had been in the lobby and she came in when all this was happening. She took it hard. This child has saw to much death. Her pawpa died almost two years ago and she was there right after he died, and it really bothered her for days.
When my grandmother took her last breath Courtney saw it all. She was in complete shock. Please pray for her that it will not cause her nightmares are any emotional trauma the next few weeks. I am afraid it has been to much for a nine year old to see.
My mom, her brother, and sister is taking this so hard. Nobody is ready to give up a loved one. Everybody kept staying around. Nobody wanted the nurse to call the funeral home.
The nurses was so kind to all of us. All night they brought us food. After my grandmother passed away and we all had calmed down some, the nurse wanted us to leave the room for a few minutes. She changed my grandmother and put a pretty pink blouse on her and combed her hair and fixed her where she looked at peace.
We all came back in the room and cried some more. I did pretty good, until the funeral people got there. I still did O.K. My hardest part was........I decided to go to the waiting room so I would not see them leave with my grandmother. I also did not want Courtney to see this.
I rounded the corner and the funeral people had left the stretcher in the hall with this beautiful burgundy, velvet blanket draped on it. I cried my heart out. That was to much to handle. I went to the big waiting room where it was just me and Courtney and I let all my tears flow.
I am physically and mentally exhausted.
For now the plans are to have the viewing Sunday and the funeral on Monday.
Thanks to all who have prayed for us.

Susan, Thanks for your prayers and for bringing up my back. I am so sorry I have not posted to everybody. I am doing so good with my back. Thank the Lord!!!!! I am able to put my hose on again. That may seem crazy, but for months I could not lift my leg to put my hose on. I still have to be careful, but I am so much better. Thanks to everybody for your prayers.
Remember me and my family for the next few days. We need extra strength. I love all of my blogging buddies. (((((HUGS))))) to you all.

15 comments:

Amy said...

I think that it's hard for a child to see death, but it's also good. They can really learn to value life, and learn to number their days and use them well, as a gift. It all depends on how you handle death. If you can cry, and still accept it she will learn a very important lesson from you. She will be there for you when your mom dies. She will hold you up, just like you will hold your own mother up now! I pray God comforts your whole family. God bless you and be near to you. Heaven is a real place, it does not have to be good bye!

Melanie said...

I'm so sorry for your loss Denna. I'll pray for you and your family. I know the next few days will be hard for you all but I'll pray so God will help you.
I'm sure she'll watch over you all now, next to God.
Lots of Hugs to you and your family.
Wov you. (It's the way Brooke says Love you :))

Melanie said...

Oh, and I'm glad your back is better:):)

Laurie said...

Denna, I'm so sorry for your recent loss. I will pray that God will ease your heart during this difficult time. You and your family are in my prayers. God Bless.

mommy24treasures said...

I will be praying. Try to rejoice in the fact she is with her dear Savior.

Lauren and Ed said...

Denna,
So sorry for your loss. Sounds like your grandmother was amazing and certainly was loved by her family. Losing someone is always hard, but heaven surely is wonderful! I pray that you and your family will be comforted during this difficult time.

Jeff and Sonya Hodge said...

Keeping you and your family in our thoughts and prayers!

Mom To Six said...

Oh, Denna. I am so sorry. I know your faith will pull you through this loss and you will someday be reunited with your beautiful grandmother.

Sending you prayers and hugs.

Poppi's Window... said...

Denna, I am so sorry to hear the news. Keep your chin up and it will be a lesson your girls they will never forget. May God comfort you and your family during this time.
Poppi

Kelly said...

I am so sorry for your loss Denna, we will be praying for you.

Karen said...

Oh Denna, I'm so sorry for your loss. Please know that I've been praying for you and your family.

Lisa L said...

Denna, I am sorry to hear of the loss of your grandmother. You are in my prayers.

Lori said...

Denna, I am so sad for you. I lost my Grandma 17 years ago and I still to this day miss her sooo much. I am so thankful for all the wonderful memories that we have of times with our Grandmothers. That is something to always treasure. It broke my heart to see you and Courtney crying so bad the day of the funeral, it brought back how I felt. Its a horrible lose that does'nt seem like will ever get better, but time does heal, but does'nt ever erase the pain. I love you and I will be praying for you and the family. Love you, Lori

Journey to Lilly! said...

awwww Denna, I am so sorry for your loss. I will be praying for your family during this sad time.
lv,
Kim

Monica said...

Denna, You are in my thoughts and prayers. Love, Monica